Cdale3 · March 11, 2017 06:58
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    With having gone through Mod 1 twice and having more time to process both emotional and physical changes to my mind-set, I discovered challenges I haven't had or known how to deal with in quite a while.  These challenges have stirred up a good amount of anxiety.  I hardly understand it.  However, your words about getting comfortable with this stranger stuck in my head.  The unknown and the fear of not knowing were getting in the way.  At the beginning of this mod and throughout, I found myself taking on more roles to help me be comfortable, though I didn't realize why I was doing it at the time.  It was only after our talk that some things started to trigger, in a more positive and informative way for me.  After the realization of what my sub-conscious was doing.  I resolved that it was for the best that I had started to do these things, even though it was adding more to my plate and pressing me for more time.  So I reflected on how my negative mind-set was, how it was transformed into something productive.  I wanted to continue that trend.  I think one of the aspects of my challenges was the unknown and the fact that I don't/didn't have an idea of where my immediate path was leading me.  Graduating from Turing is the goal, but then what?  
    I know I am not the only one who goes through these fears.  Ironically enough this was proven to me through the SAB surveys.  People were also showing vulnerabilities and fear.  They shared my fear of the unknown and started to ask the questions that I needed to have answers for, not only for just them, but myself also.  One of the ways I wanted to fight my challenges (anxiety in our 1-1 sessions (which isn't normal for me at all)) was to prepare myself for interviews and how to search for a job.  I joined the #job-hunt channel in Turing's slack.  I didn't know about it until recently.  I also held no expectations at that point.  Opening that one door to that channel opened several more doors for me.  I joined one of Ian Douglas' sessions and ended up getting two hours of a 1-1 talk.  From there I participated in Jeff's three sessions at Turing this week, about job prep and interviews and how to search for a job.  On Thursday I attended an hiring event held by Gusto.  All of these things have helped shine some light at the opposite end of the tunnel for me.  Which is helping me get more comfortable with the challenges around me.
    I plan on trying to join a few different events each month, maybe 2 to start and see how much time that takes from me. I have started to look at jobs, grow more connections in LinkedIn and other hiring websites.  In preparing for mod 2 and how we can give back, the cohort and I have been talking about what we all can do as individuals for the upcoming students.  I will most likely try to hold a session every week that focuses on ruby to help me continue sharpening those skills and provide information to our new students.  I know this will be a strain on my time for mod 2, so I will continue to use taskmanagers and other ways to help me organize my time and projects.  I also will try to reach out to both you and Allison thorughout this upcoming mod.  I think the support structure really helped, more than I can articulate.  I thank you again for everything that you do Beth.
	With having gone through Mod 1 twice and having more time to process both emotional and physical changes to my mind-set, I discovered challenges I haven't had or known how to deal with in quite a while. These challenges have stirred up a good amount of anxiety. I hardly understand it. However, your words about getting comfortable with this stranger stuck in my head. The unknown and the fear of not knowing were getting in the way. At the beginning of this mod and throughout, I found myself taking on more roles to help me be comfortable, though I didn't realize why I was doing it at the time. It was only after our talk that some things started to trigger, in a more positive and informative way for me. After the realization of what my sub-conscious was doing. I resolved that it was for the best that I had started to do these things, even though it was adding more to my plate and pressing me for more time. So I reflected on how my negative mind-set was, how it was transformed into something productive. I wanted to continue that trend. I think one of the aspects of my challenges was the unknown and the fact that I don't/didn't have an idea of where my immediate path was leading me. Graduating from Turing is the goal, but then what?
	I know I am not the only one who goes through these fears. Ironically enough this was proven to me through the SAB surveys. People were also showing vulnerabilities and fear. They shared my fear of the unknown and started to ask the questions that I needed to have answers for, not only for just them, but myself also. One of the ways I wanted to fight my challenges (anxiety in our 1-1 sessions (which isn't normal for me at all)) was to prepare myself for interviews and how to search for a job. I joined the #job-hunt channel in Turing's slack. I didn't know about it until recently. I also held no expectations at that point. Opening that one door to that channel opened several more doors for me. I joined one of Ian Douglas' sessions and ended up getting two hours of a 1-1 talk. From there I participated in Jeff's three sessions at Turing this week, about job prep and interviews and how to search for a job. On Thursday I attended an hiring event held by Gusto. All of these things have helped shine some light at the opposite end of the tunnel for me. Which is helping me get more comfortable with the challenges around me.
	I plan on trying to join a few different events each month, maybe 2 to start and see how much time that takes from me. I have started to look at jobs, grow more connections in LinkedIn and other hiring websites. In preparing for mod 2 and how we can give back, the cohort and I have been talking about what we all can do as individuals for the upcoming students. I will most likely try to hold a session every week that focuses on ruby to help me continue sharpening those skills and provide information to our new students. I know this will be a strain on my time for mod 2, so I will continue to use taskmanagers and other ways to help me organize my time and projects. I also will try to reach out to both you and Allison thorughout this upcoming mod. I think the support structure really helped, more than I can articulate. I thank you again for everything that you do Beth.