a poem in memory of a friend

l_ss

I cannot find my body. I cannot feel my mind. 
What has happened. I am lost. 

Something is wrong.
Something is broken.
This must be fixed.
I reach out for my tools. 
My tools are missing.
This must be fixed.
I reach out for my tools.
My tools are missing.
This must be fixed.
I reach out for my tools.
My tools are missing.

signal.signal(signal.SIGALRM, handler)
Timeout. Reframe. 
Where am I? When am I? 
What has happened will happen is happening? 
Disengage. Calibrate. Run basic sensor sweep.
Vision, Sound, People? Tone, Place, Time, 
Snapshot. 
	Sort, 
	Seek: Correlation. Cohesion. Congruity. Coherence. Contiguity. Causation.  
cognitve ocngruity cuasal ocntiguity crebral ocherence crineal choesion 
			<collision>?<collusion>?
How-why-where _now_
Construct context. Situate self. 
Not enough data. Too much data. Conflicting reports.

There is too much noise.

This must be fixed.
I reach out for my tools.
My tools are missing. 
	signal.alarm(timeout)

My tools are missing.
	The tools I use to put myself together are missing.
	The tools I use to keep myself together are missing.
It is broken. Broken how. How broken. 
	My tools are missing.
Something is missing.
	My tools are missing.
Next step is?
	Insufficient data for meaningful answer

This must be fixed.

Back up. Fall back. 
Not found. Not found.

No data no data no data and still there is Too Much Noise

Parts of me, and parts of . Violently ripped out, taking  and me and us and meaning with it.  were torn out, and I don't even know who  are  were  still are where? What was lost? 
What is left?
What

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