Hey friend. Something I've been thinking about lately is altruism. I think altruism is the defining characteristic of a good society. Our society isn't really conducive to it, since capitalism presents everything like a contest. In a contest you have to beat everyone.
I think people hate socialism because it's a form of forced altruism. The altruists don't care because it's what they'd do anyway. Lately I've been reading about anarchism, which is an idealistic compromise. The idea is to build our society in such a way that it's conducive to altruism, which will encourage the most people to contribute. We wouldn't have to force them, because they'd all do it on their own if we teach them how, and if we built the society the right way.
I think it's possible, though maybe not within our lifetimes. Anyway, all that was to lead into something more relevant: the altruists we have now. There is an underground society of altruists, mostly on the internet, who are actively making contributions to make the world better. The most notable example is Wikipedia. It's one of my favorites, because it unprecedentedly puts all of human history within the hands of common people like you and I. It's written by our neighbors, doctors, teachers, store clerks, and anyone else who wants to do it. It's impossible to become corrupt, because the entire website from its database to its source code are completely exposed to the public, and anyone is allowed to make their own copy of it in the unlikely event that the current maintainers go rogue. I have personally made a Wikipedia page as well as contributed to others. It was for a black American inventor as part of an active effort by Wikipedia contributors to prevent racism (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_F._Flemming,_Jr). Having the power to do this makes me feel hopeful, because common people have the ability to keep history accurate and inclusive.
This is all part of a bigger movement called The Free Culture Movement. People collaboratively produce free art, free books, free music, free software, and more. A free software advocate named Richard Stallman famously said that "it's free as in freedom, not free beer." The point being that free culture is meant to foster a collaborative environment of sharing and progress, not just to hand out "freebies." I'm also an active participant in free software, and I release any art and poems I make under a free license. For instance, my Halloween book I made is licensed under Creative Commons (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0/). I've been motivated to make free culture contributions of all kinds in the hope that someone may improve them or find them useful for their projects. Most of my contributions are for free software, where I help improve code that runs on the internet. This usually takes place on GitHub (https://github.com/).
Free Culture is all around us and goes deeper than you might think. Anyone using an Android phone is running code written by altruists, since it contains the Linux kernel which is free software, and since Android itself is also free software. It turns out that Linux is now running on more computers worldwide than any other operating system, when you factor in cell phones, servers, Raspberry Pi's, airline seat TV's, and digital toaster ovens. That makes me feel pretty good. It puts power in the hands of the people and allows us to create an environment of sharing.
I wanted to bring this up to you because you seemed down about the general state of humanity. So I wanted to make you aware of this because no other aspect of society has made life feel so much worth living before.