I have gotten to a point now where I realize my open source work is not sustainable in combination with family. I have spent a ton of time over the years developing ideas, learning, sharing and engaging with the open source community. It has been a lot of fun, but also exhausting. There is a dark side to doing open source, at least for me. Even though it is a recipe for learning I have also been spending most of my time lost in thought. Thinking about ideas, issues and craving recognition for the stuff that I share. It is not a healthy way to live your life. The cost/benefit was okay for a long time as the only people who were affected by it was my partner and myself, but now with 2 kids I have to stop... I should have stopped when we had our first kid. Sitting for 30 min next to our 4 year old daughter and not even noticing it, because I am working out this new idea in my head. Being impatient and annoyed at our 10 month year old son, because I am amped up by some bug I can not stop thinking about. Cutting my partner short when she just needs some understanding, because I am borderline depressed about not being able to follow through on my own ideas. As you can imagine I am not the greatest person to be around at times and I have decided to change that. I tried reducing my engagement, but it just makes me feel bad about not following up on stuff. I have to go cold turkey on this thing and rather put my open source efforts as part of my work at https://codesandbox.io.
Both çerebral and overmind are mature libraries with locked APIs, but they could need someone who has time and energy to maintain them. If there are any questions I am of course open to help, but I can not engage anymore with fixing issues and generally feeling responsible for the community. I have to focus on my family and start paying more attention to the actual experience of life.
Thanks a bunch for all the amazing shared experiences doing open source and keep an eye out for what is happening at https://codesandbox.io, exciting stuff ahead! :)
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Thank you for all your generous work and great libraries. We all need to disconnect from the screens and work-related stress more, and connect in real life, find a better balance. I hope you do.