es6 modules globals lost in node 12, 14 when in es6 mode

globals.js

import { dirname } from 'path';
import { fileURLToPath } from 'url';

// this is rediculous, node 14 / 12 breaking backwards compat

export const __filename = fileURLToPath(import.meta.url);
export const __dirname = dirname(__filename);

global.__filename = __filename;
global.__dirname = __dirname;