Since I'm done with the maintenance update for "The Wash", I have decided to analyze the blog that inspired "The Wash" and how it came to be. From a simple inspiration born out of infatuation, to a full fledge re-write that has more features under the hood, And a stand-alone editor written in Electron, but enough of the technicalities; you're not here for that.
For starters, This analysis is about how every line in the entry sparked my inspiration. Today's deconstruction will be Entry #1.
Let us begin with the title
"why did I start this blog"
This one is what kicked off my initial thought of starting my own blog site. Me being a masochist (sort of), I decided to write my own. I kinda went overboard and messaged Q via email, which was very embarrassing.
First, I thought I wanted to have an online diary or journal so I wrote an entry in my microsoft office word and looking at it I thought "it's not that pleasant to look at all and I would want to read this in the future" and for some reason I deleted it immediately.
While the title initially gave me the thought of making my own blog, This first paragraph is one of those "patikim" that made me want to write my own, although not the entire reason for the creation, but it gave me a good inspiration to make my own blog. I've always wanted an online blog, not by making from existing websites (in this case, weebly) through the use of template, But instead, I wanted to make something on my own where I actually wrote the systems from scratch, also to benchmark everything I've learned so far, and to impress her just in case she stumbles upon this one day.
I wrote lots of stories in the past but never finished one. I only enjoy the excitement when I start a novel and that's it when I'm halfway through, I don't know what to do with it and I'd leave it there. That's why I really want something I could just go on for the rest of my life so I would never have to think of an ending and because almost everything today is on the line, why not write on the line, right? right! That's how I came up to start this blog. I'm not expecting any readers because this is not really the real deal in life.
I'm gonna be completely honest here, I haven't actually read this part until I made this analysis entry. The last line actually intrigued me, we kinda have the same vertical slice about our site; we don't have the luxury of having that much readers. The fact that I made a novel about her makes this all the more eerie and somewhat surreal
I tell you, this blog would just be about my misadventures and my very long journey to success as God's servant. You'd think, who would read a blog about someone not known? haha, you thought right. No one.
This further backs up my previous claim about not having the luxury of dedicated readers, we're also at odds when it comes to religion and faith. A turn off for her maybe?
Well, I just hope this will stay on the internet forever so I could read and share it to my grandchildren in the future years.
This one really kicked me right in the arteries. Knowing her during highschool, she's not the kind to expect grand children. Life is full of surprises.
I need something fun to do while school's not starting yet, well atleast for me. Yep, I skipped this semester because I have to fly here in Manila for my Heart Surgery. Long story short, I have a heart condition and I need to go under an open heart operation to continue my studies. Now that I'm healed, thanks to our Lord God above, I can enrol myself to college but the first semester already started and I need 3 months for my full recovery, though I'm all fine now and it's just 3 weeks since my operation. Moreover, I really needed this kind of hobby to spend my time on for me not to feel left out.
I have a history on not belonging anywhere, So maybe, If I make a blog that's inspired by her, Maybe I'd have something meaningful to do with my life aside from doing mundane things everyday. Having friends who might share the same interest as you, sounds like fun. While I do have friends, at least for me; it's nice to have someone share the same interest.
And now we have the final line in the entry, this is the line where I actually got up and started writing my own blog.
Lastly, I realised stuffs after my surgery and I am more than ready to start a new life again which I would really want to share in my blog; a life without regrets but gratitude and genuine happiness.
This is what actually made me create the entire site, I kinda wanted to be a part of someone's life, I've read in her other entries (which will be covered in later analysis) that she has some sort of a heart sickness. I really wished, I'd get to know her soon before God takes her away, Doing a blog is probably the safest way; without having to look like a total creep. She's that kind of a person where you see her pass by during highschool, that you start to get curious who she is and then later have some sort of infatuation.
That concludes my ASJTS Analysis 1. Tune in next time for the second entry on her blog.
P.S. I kinda remembered the infatuation from a friend in college, Yes, I have so many crushes that I tend to forget which is which. She just strikes me with an odd familiarity. Deja Vu?
The link to the Mentioned Blog Entry